Felicia's Journey

Wednesday, 11 July 2018

Starbucks and Stress

So, here I am...sitting in the Middlewich Starbucks, drinking cold brew iced coffee, listening to a podcast *sigh* and full of anxiety.
I interviewed last week for my dream job. THE job I dreamt of when I was 18 working at the Good News Bookstore & loathing every second of having to answer questions about books I'd never read.

When people asked me what I wanted to do, as I'd just graduated from high school, I'd say I'd love to be an art therapist. I've always been the kind of person that people open up to. "I can't believe I just told you that" or "your my person I tell the things I could never tell anyone else!". I've always been able to see what is beyond the surface too.
I've always had the heart of an artist. I've always loved the creative. I may not be a specialist at anything one thing but it is part of me and all that I do. Anyone who has been into my home will see it. Anyone who spots me in a crowd would no doubt see it in the way I dress and the way I wear my hair.
I never knew there was a way to combine those two passions.

Then someone told me there was this thing called "Art Therapy"

Just sitting here writing is helping my breathing to slow down and they tightness in my chest to release. I brought my journal and a card to write to Miss Mouse (she's star of the week at school this week!!!!) aaaaand I'm actually here to work on the Scrutiny Panel report that I've been working on since OCTOBER 😩

OK, so back to this job. I will write the full story of how I arrived at an interview for a teacher/mentor roll on the mindfulness and wellbeing team for Warrington Vale Colligate! But for now, I'm waiting to hear. The interview was kind of chaotic, but I rolled with it. I ran over. But it felt natural and I felt a good fit for the team, we're on the same page. It was good. The feedback was positive. They're interviewing another candidate, possibly right this moment actually!

I'm hoping they'll take pity on me and let me know something ASAP! I'm crawling the walls guys!! BUT because of all of the time I've put into studying mindfulness for the interview I'm actually managing the anxiety pretty well. I'm proud of that!

Right, I have to go work on this report! I want to finish it and move on to what's next!!!!!

TTYL!

Monday, 11 June 2018

ch-ch-changes

As you can see, things are changing around here! For one thing I've got a hunger to blog again, to keep telling my story! So many, many things have happened in the past year that the life I once wrote about is almost completely unrecognisable, for the better.

I don't have tons of time to make things at the moment, but that's fine, I'm working on me! I'm making and moulding a new life for me and Miss Mouse. So many wonderful things have occurred I simply can not wait to share with you what has been unfolding.

I need to go make something hopefully tasty and healthy (while still balancing by having a glass of merlot....our little secret! shhhh!).
I've missed this little corner of the internet, a place for me to spill my thoughts and interact with people. I prefer speaking to people I don't know sometimes to be honest. I want to hear your stories too. I'm being summoned, I'd better go.... bye for now!

Monday, 27 April 2015

Little By Little

One day at a time. It is my mantra when I begin to feel overwhelmed by all of my "shoulds" and "supposed tos".

As much as I might feel it, I am not a failure as a mother because the laundry is on the floor instead of folded and put away or because the dishes from a few days ago still aren't done. Do you know I feel like someone is going to read that and gasp! My chest is actually feeling tight at the idea.
Oh how silly!

I have come so very far in the past two and a half years. It is difficult to remember where I've been when the where I am is a bit hard too.

My silence isn't for a lack of wanting to share, but life changed with the birth of a wild haired, deep eyed beauty. She is determined and dramatic. She is a Mummy's girl with a quick wit. She drives me to near breaking point and then melts my heart.

My yellow brick road has taken me many places so far in my life. Lately it's taken me back into the workforce and back into the dating world (yuck!).

In a few weeks it's taking me to Disneyland Paris! More on that to come (I hope).....
Miss Mouse and I are both terribly excited! I so want to sneak away for a bit to visit Paris itself, it is a dream of mine. I've collected Eiffel figures for years now.
I plan on adding a few more to my collection.

I also wanted to share about my new Mum crush Clair Thomson....it may have to wait. It's a preschool & work day and time is getting short before both.
I do hope to stop long enough to let blab even if I'm the only one reading. Soon!