Starbucks and Stress

So, here I am...sitting in the Middlewich Starbucks, drinking cold brew iced coffee, listening to a podcast *sigh* and full of anxiety.
I interviewed last week for my dream job. THE job I dreamt of when I was 18 working at the Good News Bookstore & loathing every second of having to answer questions about books I'd never read.

 When people asked me what I wanted to do, as I'd just graduated from high school, I'd say I'd love to be an art therapist. I've always been the kind of person that people open up to. "I can't believe I just told you that" or "your my person I tell the things I could never tell anyone else!". I've always been able to see what is beyond the surface too.
I've always had the heart of an artist. I've always loved the creative. I may not be a specialist at anything one thing but it is part of me and all that I do. Anyone who has been into my home will see it. Anyone who spots me in a crowd would no doubt see it in the way I dress and the way I wear my hair.
I never knew there was a way to combine those two passions. 

Then someone told me there was this thing called "Art Therapy"

Just sitting here writing is helping my breathing to slow down and they tightness in my chest to release. I brought my journal and a card to write to Miss Mouse (she's star of the week at school this week!!!!) aaaaand I'm actually here to work on the Scrutiny Panel report that I've been working on since OCTOBER 😩

OK, so back to this job. I will write the full story of how I arrived at an interview for a teacher/mentor roll on the mindfulness and wellbeing team for Warrington Vale Colligate! But for now, I'm waiting to hear. The interview was kind of chaotic, but I rolled with it. I ran over. But it felt natural and I felt a good fit for the team, we're on the same page. It was good. The feedback was positive. They're interviewing another candidate, possibly right this moment actually!

I'm hoping they'll take pity on me and let me know something ASAP! I'm crawling the walls guys!! BUT because of all of the time I've put into studying mindfulness for the interview I'm actually managing the anxiety pretty well. I'm proud of that! 

Right, I have to go work on this report! I want to finish it and move on to what's next!!!!! 

TTYL!